I don’t have any one right now. Yes, I have my faith, I have these ‘friends’ or anyone I can talk to but reality’s too offensive. I’m not like other parents’ kid who can runaway that easy when they’re feeling down, or stay up late, call a friend and talk non-stop till everything’s fine. Every move I make has a meaning, I can’t even express my feelings the way it should be cause they will think it’s ‘too childish’. All I can do is pray, be pretentious, force myself to just think of positive thoughts, read a book or be with you every Thursday and Friday night; see you in every episode of my favorite drama. I’m not complaining about my life right now.. okay, I’m actually grateful handling these burdens but to be honest it’s kinda heavy and writing to my beloved fictional character like you will somehow lighten it up.
We’re somehow alike. You have your struggles and I have mine. We show others how strong we are, how competitive we are but deep inside we have scars and we don’t know how to deal with it. We try our best, we can make an impact but at the end, we’re still not the main character of the story. Some people will feel hopeless about us, some will still believe in us but we’re not sure about what will happen next. I’m in doubt right now about how far I can go, about where I can get inspiration.
You never disappoint me, like few minutes ago I felt like crying or I felt nothing but now I’m getting cheerful as I make this post, as I imagine myself talking with you at that convenient store, eating ramen. You know I’m living my life like this. I’m the one who always strong, always capable of settling things but I also have the right to be tired. So I’m writing to you, because watching your character evolving makes me feel something again. I’m not addicted to you okay, I just love the way they created you because you simply make my heart flutter. By this I can say you’re far better than Kim Tan.
So I’m looking forward on the next 8 episodes as I work on how to make things better. I’ll pray, sleep, wake up, accept the new hope God is offering me and face reality. Thank you for existing.
Ang daming makitid ang utak.
Hello :) Thank you! Smooth sailing~
“I was walking in a desert,
until I saw an oasis right in front of my eyes”
He was staring at me that cold night
His metaphors always make me wanna write
Is this feeling wrong or right?
“I always fall on my dad’s joke,
But I’ve never fall this hard before”
He starts to lean his head to my shoulders
Then our eyes met and I began to wonder
What is this special power?
“There’s something about you and the moon,
you both shine best when I’m in my darkest”
He’s never that straight to the point
But there’s always a healing in our scars
On every sealed metaphors in our hearts
It’s been a tiring day
And I’ve exerted too much effort
on ‘these’ people who keeps on
pushing me away
leaving one by one
without giving any reasons
just plain goodbyes